"Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage." Psalm 84:5

11.30.2001

so...i feel like i'm hosted by the partridge family with this design. groove-o-rama. found out today that we're often talked about in not the nicest way by someone we're in regular contact with. my instinct is to cut ties, narrow my eyes, and leave the relationship in a huff, turning around to talk about them in a not-so-nice way...but the still small voice speaks - "live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day He visits us." - 1 Peter 2:12...what I want is to become like the evildoer...what I am called to is a totally different boat of bananas. and it's all about the focus - my life will be seen, interpreted, talked about...why give fuel for the gossip fire? i'm called to live such a good life that though i may be accused of doing wrong, what i've done is plainly seen and God is glorified for it in the end. my reputation matters only as it gives light to the truth of the Gospel, only as it points to Christ - not because i want to present an image or feel good about myself. i care too much about what is said - i ought to pray for my enemy instead. enemy? way off base, nose in my business aquantance is more like it. well, scuse me while i go check out the plank sticking out of my face...these things are never easy, but who said they would be?

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